chicating

Signed up for a writing workshop in November. I must be betting civilization, such as that all is, holds out.(At the same time, maybe I should have spent a big chunk of birthday money on something a bit more...novel(Pun not intended) I am always acutely conscious of all that I have missed, in ways I thought I wouldn't be when I had "late bloomer" to protect me. I don't even know what I wish I could do(Mostly, besides seeing a man about a dragon, heh heh) but mostly I know it's not this.

Still, although it's not the brand-new idea it was last year, this workshop is about the things people leave behind(letters, photos, posts, etc.) Same leader as the last one, though. (Hopefully, she will not think I'll do ANYTHING to get her to read my baby-shower story. Even though I think it's the shit.)

I watched a voter-suppression documentary for the second time with the people at work, and still have yet to see the end because they start late, my attendant kind of shows up whenever...irony much? It's good enough, though, I suppose. Wish everybody didn't shove everything in the same early-evening slots, though.

since you read, and I write, about the bad or slow parts of my job(and I'm still kind of pissed at the Dem higher-ups for not giving us better things to fight for and making my job easy thereby, but...)
I did get someone to volunteer who was disinclined yesterday...sometimes, my work is more like therapy than I'd like it to be, but people will do a lot for you if they feel you are listening to them and taking their wants and frustrations into account.(This can make talking on the phone with them frustrating and long, but I may be an ace redirector.)
Also, sometimes perhaps I try to start too early. I am more free earlier in the day, but maybe many PDA-ers are not. Perhaps when I think I should start, I should go watch something for an hour first(Possibly while pretending that someone has already said yes within that hour, making subsequent effort... lagniappe, maybe.)

that I'm more or less back where I was last week.(Got word count, though)
Bummed that I can't be at this afternoon's Rashida thing. Love her, but it's far and crowded, and I'm a bit behind on boosting.
Made lots of calls, though. One really stank, a combo of "You're wrong" and " Do you know who I am?" Neither of which I like, but mixed-together? An unpleasant wallop. But some were good.

but today's meeting went well, if slightly short of my West Wing illusions.
Proud to work for SSI and fully launch our Disability IOT.

I'm concerned about how much time the disability movement spends commemorating our greatest hits.
(Not that it's wrong to do that...but we need some new stuff, too.)

I'm not worthy...even though he made
it take long.
Also, need to work on the ending for the piece for the flash-fiction contest(Sometimes I hate Flash, both for being tiny, and the "gotcha," endings.)
Also, why do I enter these contests?! I pretty much know that somebody who went to school in Iowa or Chapel Hill has more of a chance than I, and, yes, would also like to feel better about not being able to get that MFA...for a host of reasons, one being that the relative who might have had the money to help(Not sure that he does any longer, anyway, though) never really has believed in my talents that much.
Also, then again, if I cede ground because of perceived inferiority, how would I ever get better.(I've already drummed myself out of inspiring cripplehood...not sure what's left if the artist gives up too.)
Also, in the midst of a digestive reprieve, I can do anything*
(For all values of anything that are tiny and don't involve moving around a whole lot.

make me feel a bit less than discriminating, because I don't pick-and choose through a lot of these shifts.
But it's good if you really feel like you trust your supervisor's judgement right?
(Not, in, like a cult-leader way.)

Either I inconvenience everything at home(after a difficult couple of weeks)
Or I skip back to back zooms about things I care about...some times every choice stinks, though I'm not really up to the calls tonight.(Am turning out to be exceptionally bad at the congressional one, but my congressman is also really bad and pockets campaign cash so maybe on brand?

that it was Act Out On the Phones day yesterday.
I mean. no shift is *without* that potential...like the guy last week who said we should "rethink our priorities" and not call him so much, but that was one guy. Not three in a row.