If I were looking for a phone shift to restore my passion,

[chicating]

this wasn't the one.(I'm not sure that there could be one...not giving 110% kind of feels right right now.) But at least, I could fill in the part of my bingo card for "Another disabled person tells me a long sad story," so #smallvictories.
My story will be workshopped for last class tomorrow--I've gotten a little feedback, and it's pretty good.