I don't know what I'll dream about now...
Nov. 21st, 2025 11:37 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
chicatingwhich is just one of my 99 problems, but I re-watched "Morning Glory" last night--it's a cute comedy about a morning chat show, and when I watched it the first time, in say, 2011, I was so jealous of Rachel McAdams' producer character with the job that consumes her life(I have a media degree, so it wasn't *completely* nuts to imagine a sort of AU where that was my Hamiltonian "shot", even though in real life, I never really got that close. You know?)
Working that much doesn't look that good to me now--it's good to know I can get over things; I've clung onto so much.
But I don't know what it would look like if any of my current dreams came true, since I'm not quite at "Wouldn't change a thing," either, obviously.Even if that would make people closer to me happier than it would make me.
Sort of wish I had what one of my more...unreconstructed hippie mentors used to call a "heart's desire" but I guess it could be worse than being confused...I could be tearing myself up wanting a baby, on the corner of Never Likely, and Too Late Now(one of the intersections where Phoenix really does have superior wheelchair access, if you go by my life experience, sadly) and that would hurt more than this. Probably.
Working that much doesn't look that good to me now--it's good to know I can get over things; I've clung onto so much.
But I don't know what it would look like if any of my current dreams came true, since I'm not quite at "Wouldn't change a thing," either, obviously.Even if that would make people closer to me happier than it would make me.
Sort of wish I had what one of my more...unreconstructed hippie mentors used to call a "heart's desire" but I guess it could be worse than being confused...I could be tearing myself up wanting a baby, on the corner of Never Likely, and Too Late Now(one of the intersections where Phoenix really does have superior wheelchair access, if you go by my life experience, sadly) and that would hurt more than this. Probably.
