First session of writing workshop...

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(For the next three Sundays, birthday gift from Mom.) Started off strong...there were nine of us, and the instructor. Seven women and two men...I think I'm the only disabled one, which is generally the case, and the only one from Arizona, which always is. I really do, at least, somewhat, aspire to be a "coastal elitist" at heart, but life has denied me, so far. Wonder what it means that my reading taste is most like the guy from Virginia.
If karlht has a neighbor named Paige, the world is amazingly small in ways it's probably not. that would be wild, though.
There is supposed to be a tenth, but maybe something came up.maybe she'll come next week.
Trust me to try to *break* patterns, by choosing recreation with reading and homework...there is some sadness and disappointment mixed with this happiness and engagement, but it will be worth it if I could ever get some of my long-form stuff finished. (And it has been some time without good, quality, bookchat. I suppose I'll be doing things differently by not acting like the suck-up who has her work done before anyone even asks, though. Teenage!me was gonna EARN her way off that ice floe, goddamn it.
In stranger news, I dreamed I kissed Dr. Fauci last night. I admit to being...drawn to expertise, but I am a little surprised by that one. Part competency kink, part "I've lived here my whole life, and I'm like a disease," maybe. At least I know his hands are clean.

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Karl also told me once...

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about someone he knows that asks permission to fantasize about people...that would be an awkward call to NIH.
(It was just, like, a seventh-grade kiss. not hot, really, but I felt as though things would be all right for a moment...maybe it was about disability and medicine?)
Anyway, I'd hate to have to get those kind of "waivers" because everyone would know how random my brain is and how little control I actually exercise about what pops up when I go to sleep at night.

Re: Karl also told me once...

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I don't know anyone named Paige, alas, even distantly. But yay Bay Area representation, I guess? I hope she's nice, anyhow,

Re: Karl also told me once...

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Didn't *really* think the world is *that* small, but it could've happened. My brother knows two separate families that lived in a house after we lived in it(It was kind of during a terrible time for us as a family, but still, I would have guessed the odds on that were fairly small...this should not be understood as an invitation to calculate them, though...unless you really can't help yourself. :))--I'm kidding, hon. You know I'd care enough to read it anyway, right?

Yeah, on representational grounds, I am, as generally, "One of these things/ Is not like the others." Because there was all our cultural high points heard from and then Phoenix. If I get out of this thing without somebody telling me about changing planes or stopping for gas here, I'll Paypal you a dollar, I think.(Also, my environs? May be a secondary condition, even though people try to make me feel better with the lack of hills and snow.)

So far, no chair questions. Which almost makes me want to submit a cripless writing sample. Which my oh-so-clever subconscious no-bullshit made me type as writing "simple" three separate times--At Least, I'm over that whole passing conflict, right? I don't think I will really do that, though.

Another thing people say...

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(including you, I think) I went to a conference there for work. Always a sign of a real garden spot.

Anyway, sent in my disability-soaked and genre-drenched sample...don't want to keep lying about who I am at this point.

Paige is nice...

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We'll hear her work(some kind of fiction/memoir hybrid) next week, I think. Not sure if she's a good writer, yet.