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>>Sometimes I feel like I'm just doing the same stuff over <<

You could always take up a totally new hobby. Learn something really far-out, like a historic craft or esoteric trivia. Cook a new cuisine. Take up a foreign language, that would definitely shake up your brain. I made a list of unique New Year's resolutions if you're into that.

>>Also, she's so much better at being the Inspiring Crip(maybe it's the big brown eyes) and getting people on her side praising her determination and and all that.<<

0_o Does not sound appealing at all.

Okay, sure, sometimes disabled people do impressive or inspiring things. So do abled people. Making a big deal of it is ... kind of creepy, given the messed-up dynamics between those two groups and regarding self-worth or accomplishments in general. Even creepier, some people do that the way some women trade on their sexuality to get better results from a world stacked against them.